Today, has been sort of  well on and off, I still want to believe that  Gabez & I have a chance to get the house we are looking into buying; Still the trouble is it seems like more & more bills are pilling up on this house & Gabe & I only have so much to work with.... After all we only have  about 5,000 $ to work with plus an additional 3,000$ from Gabez Aunt which we will be paying her back ASAP...

Just yesterday Gabez found out that another addition in  payment for the house is due... which is for him to pay 1 years worth of house insurance... Sup-prize bills like this have been poppoing up on us too close to the closing cost that I know I wont be able to deal with anymore "Surprising" Cost...

What upsets me the most is that Gabez was too stubborn to listen to me about keeping the apartments as an open option; he never even called the Luxery apartments back at all; he's so certain he can get this house... I am not bc it technechically  won't be guaranteed to us until all the papers & payments are checked in... which won't be until May 30th...

If we don't get this house I'll end up having to live in my Sisters Basement for a while... which I really hope I won't end up having to do; still it is better to have a roof over my head I believe than to live in a homeless shelter... Really wish I had a Job now... This infuriates me because  I am trying so hard to get through College so I can end up having a well paying job; then bf I am even finished with College...

Bam!I am getting Kicked out bc Mr. Larrabee's new Wife doesn't want me in the house, bc her son needs a place to stay...  They also kicked out their Brother in Law from the house already... He is living in Texas Now... IDK y but her son obviously already has  A room  of his own now... Not mine but another spare room in the house, and they still want me out by the end of May... after 10 years of being in Love with  Mr. Larrabee's Son Gabez  plus 4 years of being in his house helping out... I no longer feel like Family to them anymore... Just with Gabez still bc We are after all in Love with eachother...

Honestly living with the Larrabees was the first time I have ever known what it was like for my first time in my life what it was like to have a family & now I feel just Like "THE HOST" from Stephenie Meyer's Book... I feel exactly how Wanderer (Wanda)/ Melanie Stryder felt ... Like an Unwanted guest except by  Jeb  her crazy Uncle & her brother Jamie who both seemed to believe Melanie Styder was still somehow alive inside.... If you are Unfamiliar with the book you should read it I'm on page 310 and am still having  a hard time putting the book down !

Still my ultimate favorite Author Is Becca Fitzpatrick; & her Series HUSH, HUSH... If you love HUSH, HUSH her first book you'll Love the rest of her Series as well... TRUST ME !!!!! :")

~ Anna R. Davenport ~