My emotional statues has been off the chart  lately, for the last few days or so I have been sick, completely out of it; and emotionally unstable. I broke into an emotional outrage in front of my boyfriend Gabez... About my real feelings of  frustration  that I have been allowing to build up inside of me; about his step mom... who I will not name on my blog spot despite how mad I am at her... Although letting go of what I have been holding inside of me and venting it out to Gabez like a baby felt really good; despite the fact that by the time  was done saying what I needed to get off my chest... He  ended up Coaxing me like a young 12 year old girl; I can't exactly blaim him bc that is exactly what I was acting like in from of him; still it bothers me when others even the love of my life talks down to me... Unusually I coaxed myself while he was coaxing me; reminding myself that he was explaining things to me the way he would a child bc I had after all allowed myself to act like a child.... It isn't easy for me to vent like an "adult" at all... Especially when I am feeling overwhelmed & too emotional for my own good...

I suppose if I am to  grow up & act more of my own age it will be better for me to just vent when I am in a room  by myself; other wise I might "Explode"... Oddly enough though after Gabez was  finished Coaxing me despite how, young he treated me it still was soothing enough to make me feel better & helped me understand that despite how anyone else felt about me at his house that, I'll always mean the World to Gabez & That made me feel  even more Loved by Gabriel ! I  really do Love him which is why I no longer mind that I am being kick out of this house I've been living in for years; because I know our new place that Gabez & I are getting will be our new home & at least I know that I will BELONG AT OUR HOME! OUR very Own Place Together FOREVER; Untill Death Do Us Apart !