My mom mistreated me, too. I use to try to be very obedient & responsible, did everything my mom asked me to do around the house and always tried very hard to show the utmost respect for her. In truth I was very desperate for my mom to love me. I realized when I was 14 that I was never going to be able to earn her love.
My mom & dad have since admitted they were wrong for mistreating me all those years & are very sorry. I think our relationships have been mending slowly since then, & my dad has been going to church more often, which is good.
The way I look at life is that we all have trials & tribulations, our own ups & downs. No life is perfect or ever will be except for Jesus Christ, Gods’ son. I have faults, made mistakes I regret, such as having premarital sex before I met my present boy friend Gabriel Larrabee when I was about 17. I had moments in my life before I met Gabriel when I didn’t think of myself as lovely or loved.
I was 8 when I first accepted Jesus Christ into my life, but I didn’t truly understand or even try to follow in Christ’s footsteps until I was 19. At that time I noticed a huge change in myself because I decided to truly give myself to Jesus Christ with the help of Gabriel. I have had a lot of growing up & maturing to do & admit I still am learning so much about life everyday.
Since I had been going to this church I had been re-learning how to walk in the same foot prints as Jesus. Faith Bible Church is like new, fresh air for me. I learn something new each time I go to this church and how to be more in synch with Jesus.
Each day I spend more time discovering how to walk with God, spending less time doing what I want to do and more what I feel Jesus is leading me to do with my life.
There are still times I find myself stumbling & falling short in my walk in Christ, but He helps me to recognize when I make mistakes more then ever. After sinning I feel so bad that I immediately pray for forgiveness & correction so I don’t make the same mistakes again.
I am so filled with the Spirit of God that I no longer have the wrongful desires that I had back in my past. I was looking for love in all the wrong places, so to say, & during that whole time Jesus was stretching out to me & trying to get me to take his hand & accept him as the love of my life. Trust me when I say there is no Love greater then Jesus’ Love! " ...
Amanda took A Video of my Baptism but Amanda took the video from the distance & she told me her Camera doesn't catch sound to easily... So I will Post the video up Later bc you can hardly hear any of it but this is the speech that I spoke during the video... which I will be posting Latter when I have more time on my Hands...
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